H-5

Hey there. Saya kembali menulis. Hal yang paling saya sukai selama saya hidup; menulis (curhat si? hehe). Saya tidak pernah membuka pikiran saya yang sejujur-jujurnya kejujuran ke orang. Susah, nah jadi selama ini kalo curhat bohong? a little bit hehehe :p tapi serius, makanya menulis jadi kesenengan sendiri. Bebas. Bisa dihapus ;)

H-5 nih guys. Bit sad, more exciting! Nanti yah kasih taunya hehe. Banyak banget ya berubah hampir setahun ini, sekarang keliatan banget mana temen yang paling paling soalnya masih sering ketemu haha hihi kayak waktu SMA (bahasa tua banget si) sama mana temen yang cuman tweet "kangen". Dulu, janjinya kita entar harus sering ketemu ya entar kuliahnya bareng aja entar tempat kerja nya bareng aja, manis banget kan. Ah, jadi kangen. Tapi, jadi berpikir.. kok masih gini gini aja? kenapa cuman saling janji hal-hal yang duniawi ya? kenapa waktu itu tidak janji entar kita tarbiyah bareng yuk entar kita ikut kamat juga yuk? Makanya, sekarang agak takut mau deket lagi, takut belum bisa mendominasi. Padahal pengen pakai jilbab masuk musholla duduk manis dengerin kajian jum'at bareng gitu. Mulai nih, semangat membara.. Wait me ya guys. Kita sama-sama masuk syurga yuk ;)

Mine is: Officially Missing You

A month has already passed
Time goes so fast – times when we used to complain 
I miss those times, for those warm feelings
At the deep place in our hearts, it remains as a memory
I hope I will remember forever, how about you?

Do you remember?
When we first saw each other, when we didn’t know anything
Just like a game of ice tag, our first impressions were completely frozen
But now, we’re not just classmate, but something more
Strangely, our signs keep resembling each other 
like the warm sunshine, you too?

We’re always together, we went from friends to family
Let’s promise to never change

Time has already passed this much, friend, how are you doing?
Sometimes, I rewind back time and go back to the old past when we were together
When the springs are all wound back, a melody that can’t be heard again flows

You, me and us, let’s preciously cherish this time
This time won’t come back, this sweet time that is made with our melody
Even if what is seen with the eye is not everything, we are in front of each other, which is everything

I long for you like a habit, I hope I can turn back time
Although it might be forgotten from other people’s memories little by little

There’s only one of you to me, I’ll always call you a friend
And only you are the one who is by my side
Now you and I resemble each other so much, only one for me
Do you know how precious I think of you?

There’s only one of you to me, I’ll always call you a friend
And only you are the one who is by my side
(2 heart) I love you so much, I’m so thankful
I’m officially missing you (officially missing you)

Can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I I’m officially missing you

my recent favourite lyrics, yep this beautiful words come from a song by Hello Venus- Officially Missing You. I don't take all parts and also not really into that girlband, this is just exactly representing my feeling. I scrolled my timeline and there was someone who was listening this song, so did I (look how bored I am). Really miss those old times. You know, in life, there are like-tape-button; play, pause, rewind, and fast forward, for breath. But this time, I would like to press rewind button, and completely out of my mind hehe. How about you? What words are you? 

Sekedar rindu

Hai, aku kembali menulis. Ditemani pikiran-pikiran suntuk yang terus menemani tiap malam yang kadang membuatku tidak tidur. Namun, kali ini aku memutuskan untuk "killing the time" dengan blogging. Aku tidak punya cerita-cerita mengharukan seperti Jack yang kehilangan Rose, Peterpan yang tidak bisa tumbuh dewasa, atau cerita yang penuh petualangan seperti Harry Potter finds the hocrux, or Dora helps her friends (?). Tapi, kenapa saya merasa rumit dengan permasalahan-permasalahan yang sederhana? mungkin karena saya membuatnya menjadi rumit (duh jadi ribet ini ngomong apa)

Ada pertanyaan yang membuat saya merenung, "Doesn't it scare you sometimes how time flies and nothing changes?" sudah 18 tahun saya hidup *claps* dihabiskan oleh sekolah, les, pindah rumah, tertawa, menangis, tarbiyah, puasa, sholat, and other living things. Tapi, tidak ada satupun yang berubah. Scary, huh? Terkadang ya, disaat seperti ini ada satu kenangan yang muncul seperti video di kepala saya, wajah Aba saya. Dia datang ke rumah, mengajak kami bertiga makan diluar, berenang, mengantar pulang, memeluk, mencium, dan menjenguk saat saya operasi. Tapi, wajahnya mulai kabur. Jadinya setiap selesai shalat saya berdo'a kalau tidak bisa ketemu di dunia nyata, di dunia mimpi juga boleh. Mungkin, karena sudah lama sekali tidak ketemu dan kebetulan tidak punya fotonya. Untung, wajahnya Nu'man mirip 99,9% sama Aba haha

Ah sudah lama sekali..

Binary number

"Hidup itu seperti angka biner. Kalo bukan satu, ya nol" saya mendapat kutipan itu dari Novel pinjaman. Awalnya hanya seperti kalimat biasa. Tapi, saya 'stuck', dibaca lagi, dimaknai..
Jadi, hanya ada ya dan tidak. Ga ada mungkin. Hanya ada perempuan dan laki-laki. Ga ada banci. Deal? I bet on this. Orang-orang hanya belum 'ngeh', suka buat orang lain bingung dengan hal-hal yang mereka inisiatif kan sendiri. Ujung-ujungnya, mereka lah yang disudutkan. Padahal ulah sendiri. Eugh, don't make it too far *keepcalm*
Hanya ada nol dan satu. Yang lain hanyalah pengaruh dari salah satunya atau keduanya.
Konsisten. Satu kata yang dapat menyimpulkan kutipan tadi. Hebat. Dari angka nol dan satu bisa membuat hidup sangat mudah dengan kecanggihannya. Cerdas sekali. I give my thumbs up for anyone who made binary number.
-Ehem, all what I wanna say is to do not say "maybe" anymore. Confuse someone, u know. Peace:p-

Flower boy next door eps 11

"Because people aren’t machines or toys built in factories, we’re special and complicated. Our uses, the colors of our hearts, our scents, our pressure points or weaknesses that hurt even when something grazes it—everyone is different. One must look for a long while just to make out their outlines. That’s why that woman doesn’t believe in fateful loves. She didn’t believe."

That girl part 8

Why do people hate other people? Why do they treat them differently? Why do they want to step on the weak? There must be people who aren’t like that. Where are all those people? I thought if there were just one person like that, it would be nice. Since then, being alone was always more comfortable.

That girl’s door did not open for a long time. Invitations began to pile on her doorstep, two, then three.
A person who came close like a new breeze, a person who blocks a gale like a shelter from the wind.
For the first time, that girl grows afraid of her own desire to open her door.

Password:lulus

Di kepala sekarang ini cuman satu : lulus. 100% murni lulus karena kemampuan sendiri karena proses 3 tahun yang serba rumit. H-15 menuju asisten apoteker bersama teman-teman, tidak senang tidak sedih, just really really curious. Setelah ini gimana? Perasaan uda lulus gimana? Ortu gimana? Puas ga ya? Like a child having her first day school.
Tiap hari dikomporin terus, dibayang-bayangi upk yang tidak pernah kehilangan detiknya menghantui kita, proses selama 3 tahun ditentukan selama 3 jam di lab. i bet we're so ready to face it. Neugencie, bismillah aja ya. Fire!